where am i.

i spend so much fucking time trying to reach you guys.
trying to be like you guys.
but why am i? and its so damn fucking hard to.
its just not me.
but i want to. - why do i want to?
i dont even know who  i am anymore.
.. or what i really want anymore.
ive spent so long over something -
i cant seem to give it up.
i cant seem to give you up.
ive changed so much
going through different phrases
but i always end up looking down the same alley
.
i want to be like you.
i want to be you.
i want to be anyone - because i dont want to be myself anymore.

im lost.

ily bub.